It's funny to think that I started writing this post in February.. and am only getting around to finishing it now! Goes to show that Procrastination station is a real thing... Watch this TED video to feel better about yourself... https://www.ted.com/talks/tim_urban_inside_the_mind_of_a_master_procrastinator
Getting back to the point... It feels as though there's a change in the air! Work seems to pose different challenges; besides having to dress more professionally (most days I just hope my hair doesn't look too fuzzy), it is time to really prove your Salt worth... to make not only your employers happy, but to make Yourself Proud of the job you're doing. Social itineraries also seem to be changing in form... sleep seems to be the most desirable pastime and as for eating...well, I've always loved eating (so at least there's one constant). It is exciting on the one hand, to feel as though it is now our time to shine... to be the young and dynamic adults of the world...Entering the somewhat emancipated phase... New and dazzling opportunities, learning the tricks of the trade and working our way to becoming independent and knowledge-filled human-beings. On the other hand, it is a little scary to think that the days of lying on the couch until someone brings you a sandwich...are literally over... That the dishes are not going to wash themselves, and that if you don't ensure that there are clean towels or socks for you...There won't be any! It is clearer to see the direct impact your decisions and choices have on your life; over-spending, over-partying, under-exercising....eish, I can hear it now... "I'm starting with the man in the mirror" Sing it to me MJ! It's hard to admit the things above...but it goes both ways; if you commit yourself to a task earnestly, whatever it might be, it will be fair to enjoy the reward that follows on from it! I'm not sure where this post is supposed to lead, if there is even any real message behind it, I guess the most important thing is that I am still writing. It's sort of the same with jogging- or any exercise or hobby you have had for a long period of time. Just because there are tough days, or times where you haven't been able to put on your tekkies for weeks... You still summon up the enthusiasm every now and again, and you do it. You do it because even though it might seem like the last thing you feel like doing, you know deep down inside that it's the only thing that'll cure your feelings of Iffy-ness and that you will be able to reap something from it-- as small and as insignificant as it may seem. Thinking about it, I am grateful for the days where I have internet access. Not just because I get to catch up on watching Jimmy Fallon on Youtube, but because it actually gives me a chance to see how my blog is doing. To remind myself of my mission. I feel guilty when I haven't written in months, and for putting it off for a multitude of reasons. My blog is here, at times, to remind me of who I am...and where I ultimately want to be. To be my own person; a beautiful, flawed, fluid person. To accept who and what I am and most importantly, where I come from. And to realize that it's not always about ME. It's about the people you love, you work with, the bigger picture, things you have to contribute to, or just plain taking a back seat. And it's on that back seat that you get to see how things really work... Observe! Become quiet, and pay attention to how things work. I saw in a movie once that "you can't learn while you're talking, it's literally a fact of life". Stop blaming others, or things that you don't understand. Take the focus off of what other people are doing, and You do You. This has brought me to the recent conclusion; I want a change. I feel that I am ready to break through to a new level. I am ready to be scared; in a new environment where there are challenges that require me to use what I have learned up to now. It is time to make use of the knowledge and skills that have brought me to where I am today. I can do this and I believe in the dreams that I have that I can get to where I want to be. Harness your self belief and the love that the people close to you have given you. Be grateful for their company and for their encouragement (and the fact they always listen to your stories...as mundane or repetitive as they might get); this is the ultimate sacrifice. This is real love. Before I get too carried away, I have a last message; spend real time focusing on your future. As a wise person has told me before, use your free time constructively; rest, but make sure that this time is spent on where you want to go! I'd be lying if I said that I didn't care whether my writing made an impact on someone... Because I truly hope that it does. But I have to accept the fact that it actually doesn't matter if this blog never gets me anywhere. At the very least there is an outlet for a person like me. If the only person I ever inspire, or keep on track is me, then at Least I will be happy--- And this is the real point, I guess. Do things for yourself. Not for anyone else.
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AuthorHi there, my name is Judete Fourie. I am a twenty-something-year-old writer living in Stellenbosch in SA's Western Cape. Follow my day to day adventures that involve wine, wit and braaibroodjies. Archives
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